Therefore you are to be perfect, as your heavenly Father is
perfect.
there is none righteous, not even one;
there is none who understands,
there is none who seeks for god;
all have turned aside, together they have become useless;
there is none who does good -
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
for by grace… and not of yourselves…
Everyone who practices sin also practices lawlessness; and
sin is lawlessness.
I think, growing up, I grappled with the idea of perfection
all the time. I was, and am, something of a perfectionist when it comes to my
being. If I sacrifice time and effort into an activity meaningful to me, I
expect nothing short of excellence, of perfection. My competitive spirit always
found comparison with those performing better, or those persons who were
smarter, faster, stronger, more able.
Be perfect, as your
heavenly Father is perfect.
My perfection was an odd one. If an activity meant little to
me, perfection was (is) unnecessary. With homework assignments, or games that I
disliked, I rarely tried harder than what was necessary to do “well” or “above
average”. But how does one spiritually acquire perfection? We’re constantly showing
our efficiency at failure, myself in particular.
I remember once having an argument with myself about what perfection even meant. It means a
life without sin, no? And sin means “falling short”, and its original use was
in archery when the draw fell shy of the target. Sinning isn’t overshooting, or
hitting the target and just failing to hit the bullseye – sinning is knowing
that your arms simply aren’t broad enough to reach the target; the distance is
behind your ken.
My argument was, could I simply lock myself into a room, and
quarantine my iniquity from the world, and live a perfect life in seclusion?
But I always came around to the idea that sin, and lack of perfection, wasn’t
simply *not failing* but also striking the target. You cannot live perfectly by
refusing to draw the bow in the first place. “But I never even shot an arrow – how could I
have fallen short?” It was an argument that always left me a bit miffed; a “damned
if I do, damned if I don’t” sort of frustration. It was a catch-22 (thanks
Heller), no doubt, and I felt the fall like a cancer within me.
Grace is a miracle. But it doesn’t make me perfect. I’m
feeling particular imperfect lately, having been sick, and looking at my
writing and wishing it better, and noticing all those places in my life where I
feel like a spectacle of imperfection. We all are, perhaps, but that doesn’t
relieve the feeling that we’re in glass houses, and everyone is witness to our
weakness.
